August Updates~

Hello to all! :3 
It's that update time again and, I'm afraid to say...it won't be hugely uplifting or happy :,3 I just need something to do right now because I'm just really upset and need to find something to stop me from crying...heh..~

Well, the reason I'm so upset is that my cat was put to sleep this evening ;-;
And I can honestly say, I've never witnessed anything so upsetting and horrendous in my life. Just...watching your pet slip away and leave the world behind...nothing breaks your heart quite like that ;-;
She's been sort of not right for a long time, so it was probably for the best.
She (by the way, her name was Mindy) was very old. Like, around 16-17 years old. Her muscles have really been bothering her. Whenever she walked around, she'd often trip on small things like TV remotes and even trip on nothing. She'd spend every moment sat behind our sofa and only came out to eat or occasionally sit with us. She'd also meow a bunch when she walked. We weren't sure if it was because she was in pain, or if she was confused or something else...but it concerned us. We had her taken to the vet (the loveliest man ever!) who gave her some pain killers to take, but they didn't really help. We just let her be.
The other night though, my mum was at the front door and Mindy walked outside. And my mum let her because...well, why not? And in the split second my mum turned around to look back into the house and then back outside, Mindy had run off somewhere. We were walking around the street looking for her and we eventually found her behind our neighbours bin sat in all sorts of dirt and...other stuff :,<
So my mum took her to the vet and he said it was probably time. So me and my mum took her back today and...that was that.
I cried so much at the vet and felt really silly, but I honestly loved that cat more than anything! I know people say cats don't love their owners like dogs do, but I honestly felt like Mindy loved us. Especially me! I'm not saying that in a joking tone either, I'm being serious :,3
If she was sat behind the sofa and I came downstairs, she'd come out after hearing my voice. She'd always rub around my legs and, when she could walk a lot better, she'd often come upstairs and meow outside my bedroom until I let her in.
Wah! ;-; I miss her so much! </3 I'm just glad she isn't suffering or in pain.
Plus, we are getting her back in a week. Sort of...
We are getting her cremated and her ashes are going to be put in a little china urn. We're not sure if we'll scatter the ashes or keep them, but it's going to be nice to keep her with us in some form <3

So that was really upsetting and still is, but I'm sure I'll be fine eventually. I just need a while to let it sink in and then start getting over it. Then I'll be able to remember Mindy happily! n.n

Let's see...lighter news, lighter news~
Hmm...
Well, I dyed my hair blue! ...yea, big news! :,)
It's a little hard to maintain though D; when I had purple hair a few years ago, that was hard to maintain as well. I try anything and everything to help the colour stick, but I still have to dye it every week :,) but I don't really mind! I've wanted blue hair for YEEEARS! At least since I was...about 13? Hahaha :,DD
Also! Tales of Xillia 2 is coming out tomorrow! :3
I won't be getting it until next Tuesday, though D; which is sad, but I'm kinda relieved :,) gives me a bit more time to complete the first game! I've been SOO slack at trying to complete it lately :,3 sometimes grinding for hours and days on end gets a bit tiring :p
I actually ordered the Tales of Xillia 2 Day One Edition but found that Amazon had the Ludger Kresnik Collector's Edition back up again, so I cancelled the Day One Edition and ordered the super fancy one ;D which means I can film and unboxing video for my YouTube Channel which I haven't done in a while! So that's exciting! n.n
I'm also excited to see my hubby, Alvin again! <3 gaad! Love doesn't even BEGIN to cover what I feel for that man! *cries and flails* ;-;

I also downloaded (quite a while ago now) The Sims 2 + expansion packs from the Apple Store on my mac :,3 that was AWESOME because I've been pining for that game for so long and I finally got it! It's almost like the Apple Store read my mind and answered my prayers!
*looks up at the sky lovingly* th...ank...you..~
I've made a couple of serious families...and a lot of stupid families that I like to screw over :,) I also like going on pre-installed families and messing their lives up. One of the best aspects of Sims, right? Family affairs and deaths...yea.
I know I'm not alone so don't look at me like that! >. >

I can't think of much else to say and even if I could, I'd be stopping now because I'm suddenly feeling very tired and drained ;-;
Thank you for reading and I'll post again soon! :3

BYESIES! c:
                       xoxo~